Something warm
The sun is shining over Brooklyn, it is a beautiful crisp day, & here I sit inside my apartment ~ which is very cave-like. I went out to go to one of my secret meetings earlier, & that was nice…but then I had nothing to do, and everyone I know is either working or hiding from me, so I went home. Now I write to you sitting on my bed, next to a window covered in iron bars, in the dim seclusion of this tapestry rich sultan TOMB. I love going outside, I love getting dressed, I love eating food. I often feel bad for myself in moments like this…thinking things like…”everyone is sitting in central park hugging & giving eachother tattoos & blow jobs w/o me.” I could alternatively go to the gym, but I have become afraid of it again. Maybe that means I should go…it just seems pointless right now, my bod is cute alrdy…is it very important to pump it up? I dunno.
This is a picture of me @ age 16.
Today was very weird. I felt exhausted all day @ work, and everyone else was feeling crazy & by the end of the day they were acting crazy too. I knew it was going to be a crazy day when Cara showed up in her fishegg print pants and salmon socks. I suppose Saturday can do that to you…I had a quesdilla pizza slice for dinner w/ Raul/Sean/Lain…it was delicious. Vinnie’s is so creative. They also have a lot of cutie pies working for them. Stella fixed my nails this morning, however one looks a little weird. I am trying to practice acceptance about it, plus everyone said its NBD. I am a little worried I am going to become schizophrenic, only because I talk to myself a lot in different voices. Most people tell me its because I am brilliant & from the future. I have to do homework tonight, but all I wanna do is eat more shit and watch tv…I am really bloated…every day I eat pure shit & feel the same. At night, lying in bed filled with gas, I tell myself tomorrow will be different. By 10 am the next day I am mindlessly shoving cheese covered bread down my throat. C’est la vie. This is Life…it is meant to be experienced, not wasted through fear etc. I have to find acceptance & embrace all aspects of this world…or else I will be v. unhappy. I have a lot of crushes right now. So many cute boys in this city…
I quite incredibly flew down the stairs at work yesterday & spun around and was horizontal for some time. I was sure this was it for me, but a cat lives within me I suppose, for I did some arial acrobatics and landed in my feet, holding my glass of water, with my nails looking like this…a small price to pay for ones life. Perhaps they saved me?
Elliot from SVU…yr welcome
Here, you can see Alta, our friend Thea, & Myself ~ dressed up for Halloween in 10th Grade…I made that helmet with paper mache over a balloon! I also had a jetpack made from soda bottles, which is on my back…what fun!
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